Four years ago today was the last time I took a relaxing shower.
And four years ago tomorrow was the day that my life totally changed. And I do mean totally!
Four years ago Adam and I were in a hotel room in Nanchang, China when our guide came to the door and said to meet in the elevator area in 5 minutes. "Holy guacamole", I thought, and seriously considered using the fire escape....
Sure glad I didn’t.
Four years ago I was handed the most incredible gift ever. Sure, the "gift" wasn't too keen on participating in the day's events and was so scared and so miserable that it almost broke my heart. But through all of the tears- hers and mine- I knew this was one of the most magical and awesome moments that I would experience in my life.
Because you see this gift that day four years ago was my beautiful daughter.
But my precious baby was even more terrified. We were told that she had cried the entire four hour bus ride to Nanchang. She was very scared, very tired and very good at letting us know exactly how she felt. After peeling the four or five layers of clothing off of her sweaty little body and cuddling in the bed for what seemed like hours she fell asleep on Adam.
She still had a very hard time adjusting to us, it definitely took a few days to feel safe with us, and even longer to like us... and eventually to love us. We spent two amazing weeks in China with her and saw so many incredible sights.
Everywhere we went she had to hold something in each hand. Stacking cups, peeka-blocks or balls.
She was even blessed in a Buddhist Temple. She slept through the whole thing, but I was pretty awed by the ceremony.
She still was a bit scared of others though. I'm sure any of you China Mama's and Dad's have a beautiful "red couch photo" taken at the White Swan. Well, we do not. You see we tried but it was a disaster. Simone Did Not wish to be put there without me, and she started crying immediately, which caused one of the other girls to cry which, yes, caused tears from all of the girls! What a mess...but she knew she wanted Mama sitting with her and nothing less would do!
So four years ago was a day that gave me memories that I will always have to cherish. It was the day the most precious of life's gifts was granted to me, the day I became a Mama. I have had four wonderful years to get to know and love my sweet daughter, for us to become this incredible family. Each day I wake up and am so thankful for her in my life, so grateful to be given this gift of motherhood.
But I also mourn for her first mother - for her loss- and I hope she feels in her soul that QingLu is safe, happy and very loved. And I hope she knows we will always be grateful for the gift of our daughter. Often when I hear Simone's deep & earnest laughter or see that sparkle light up her beautiful eyes or spot those dimples high up on her cheeks, I wonder if these come from her birth mom. I hope they do...
Happy Forever Family Day my dear, sweet Simone Qinglu! I love you forever and for always!
Side note...I had to write this a day early because I will not have access to a computer tomorrow, and just couldn't go through the day without sharing the joy of the day!