Friday, October 26, 2012

Three years..

Three years ago and half way around the world.....

It still amazes me, how one moment can change your life and world in such entirety.  A moment so huge, one that you have waited for what seems like forever to happen - a moment you'll remember always for it has been etched on your heart. 

Now as I reflect on the last three years I just don't know how we did it without our Sammy Wei in our lives, in our family.   I've spent the last hour or so remembering that sweet chubby little baby that was placed in my arms three years ago in Taiwan.  And a big part of my memories of that day is anguish or heartbreak on his Foster Mother's face when passing him to my eagerly waiting embrace.  I clearly remember the final hugs and kisses she gave with such passion and love, the tears flowing from her.  On that day I didn't fully understand - for she certainly knew this day would come.  Should she be feeling so
Well, after knowing him as I do I can understand - after three years to reflect I totally get it.  This little guy simply grabs onto hearts and does not let go.  The bonds he forms with those he loves is so deep and true.  He is life itself...action and motion whirling around, with a booming voice that sounds like warm gravel and eyes that light up in the most beautiful chocolaty way.  He is pure laughter and hugs, full proclamations way too old for his three and a half years and the vigilant keeper of our memories and moments.  He is energy and cuddles all at once, he'll knock you down in his exuberance to get somewhere but just as quickly pull you up with a heart felt "I sorry".  He is smart as a whip and catches on to things so amazingly fast when he wants to! He is pure delight.

I remember the moments of getting to know him, the joy we'd all feel at the slightest giggle, smallest affections and tiniest signs of bonding.  He showed hints of the sparkles of life he's so well known for now, only then we didn't know just how huge those sparks would grow!  We witnessed his determination early on and his curiosity in all things.  We had an inkling even then that he could possibly be a bit of a handful....we truly had no idea just how much!!

The three years that have passed have been the most challenging of my life.  In a good way for sure, but exhausting and busy none the less.  And I have had so many life tests -  parenting tests - that I sometimes passed but probably just as often failed.  Sammy has taught me so much about life and how to really live it, about how to let go and enjoy each moment, how to be more daring and how to take time to really check the interesting things in life out.  And I've had quite a few lessons on time management with two wild kiddos in tow!  He's definitely taught me  how to dig deep into my brain to try to outsmart a pint size genius!  The joys and demands of my Sammy Wei....

My heart always hurts for Sammy Wei's birth mother and family on this day.  I remember the gratitude I felt I toward her on this day three years ago.  It has grown to not just gratitude but to a debt I could never fully repay.  I would have to give her all of my heart to ever truly show her how the decision she made to allow me to be his mother has meant to me.

On this day I give my thanks for my blessings, my children.  We will take time today to celebrate being a family of four and we'll reminisce about this day three years ago and half a world away.

Happy Family Day my sweet little WeiChe!

1 comment:

michelle said...

Happy Sammy Day!! I hope your day was full of love and laughter and just enjoying that cute little guy of yours!